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Reveal
03:44
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you’re too late I’ve no idea how high
is too high for heat that slickens my
poison come to me floating your scarf
falls away I see your throat like an angel
paused in the work of daring me to
travel thighs of I am here I am flesh
I am that which waves in tidal pools
trying to attract you do I have your
attention not yet I am the raft in the
wine-stream running down to be
cleansed what better way to die
perhaps trapped in legend the breeze
I dream of pines and ripples but you
put me under again how is it possible
so far from shore softly do you hear
me twist and swirl as you write stories
about wolves and hunger you seem
to think them new but no tale can be
invented that hasn’t already been told
by the sea it’s like how we’re all afraid of
not finding the words but the more
we say the harder it gets because
language is like heroin you think you’re
using it but it’s really the other way and
you realize too late but by then you
don’t care you’re spellbound and isn’t
it wonderful tapping away on the glass of
what could have been all the great loves
blow away with each word at least you
have the one about the little girl and the
boy and the girl and the boy and on it
goes but it doesn’t matter now all this
freezing for future who will listen when
the star by whose light you splash page
after page with ink will explode but that’s
not true it will fizzle and wink out like a
torch held by the hunter seeking that
which guards his soul but he’s too deep
in the maze and all that’s left is flickering
and a string of futures he’ll never see if
only he hadn’t listened to the bards
and their drunken lies though not ill
intentioned he just didn’t know how
much salt to take with each serving being
a simple child and warm like the one
he remembers so dimly but yes she
kept him warm at night as his mind sought
the wind but it’s not a thing you see that is
what we know here at the bottom it can’t
be found because are you ready I mean
really ready alright don’t say I didn’t warn you it’s because mind isn’t a thing but a
capacity to reveal that is why you’ll never
find it no matter how many mountains you
climb you won’t find it’s shape though
your head is round and your heart a vague
pear that is the real fruit of the garden oh
you thought it was an apple yes it’s a
common mistake made by those swinging
through space but there’s nothing I can do
about it and I don’t really want to because
you refuse to look and I’ve gotten used to
it and have come to like it in fact as things
are much quieter now here in the dark
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You Are Music
01:57
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Remember when I painted you
In notes?
Recreated everything about you
In four four time?
Of course you don’t
You weren’t there
But you were
All over the place
In rhythms and fingertips
And syncopated missteps
Remember the time
My face got red
You called it a blush
And it made you smile
But red is the color of lust
Of want
Of fire
It’s the melody of
me pretending I have
Any sort of barriers
To loving you completely and breathlessly
Kissing your neck with harmonies
The real kind
Not this music I make
These clumsy tunes
These dying prayers
Of a forgotten animal
The kick and the snare that fade
When there’s nothing left inside me
No, your song is a real one
With lyrics
And a bridge
Chord progressions that make sense
And it makes me wonder if you remember
The time I painted you with notes
But you’re too far to hear me now
Forever on the other side of the Mobius
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3. |
Toxic
04:47
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The dopamine crashes
On the cortical shore
Of my homeland where reason clashes
With need, logic fights
With desire
Pulling like a rabid dog bound by chains
I know I shouldn’t love you
Shouldn’t see you smell you taste you
Feel you
In the crevices of every breath
But I do so help me
God I do
What poison are you?
What absolute and utter ecstasy, this high
Of feeling like the world was created just for me, like
The universe exploded
Emanating from a single point, one
Dimension with the singular purpose of writing
Out my name in stars
Nebular clouds of ink spilling forth
As it exploded into planets and asteroids and, yes,
Leaving black holes as a portent
To remind us that it can’t all be stars
But I didn’t listen
I didn’t listen and now
The secrets of everything are scrawled across my skin like scars
From scalding water, reminders of melted flesh
Tattoos that fade into each other and I can’t read them anymore
What is ink and what is stardust, can you tell me the difference?
No, you can’t
Because you’re the ghostwriter, busy weaving
The tall tale into my bones
The one that ends with me being happy and complete
Wanted
Understood
But it’s just fiction, and fiction is
The cry from the empty mouth
That blasphemy once kissed
Take your needle and ink of honey
And sell your dopamine fix in the next town, run
Your fingers along
Someone else’s spine
Tell anyone but me
That they’re worthwhile to love and dance with
Them among the stars to the waltz of lo-fi cosmic background
And gravitational waves
That translate my tachycardic pleas
Into real words that anyone can hear
But most of all, no matter what
Never forget what Orion said as he hung his belt
By the door, when he knew
That hunting was wrong after all
Don’t you remember?
He told us of the satyr who caught an arrow to the heart
And lay bleating and bleeding, spilling
Secrets of God all over Orion’s shrinking hands
And the hunter just sat and cried, he
Said he couldn’t tell what was blood and what was truth, he
Told us never, but never to kill each other again
But here’s the real secret behind those words
Killing is the same as loving, he whispered at last
And none of us will make it out alive
But it’s just poetry, you said
It’s not as though it’s the truth
And I told you that there’s nothing more
True ever thought or written than the blood of bards
And that satyr was right
No death could be sweeter than love
And now I know everything
All the subtext and the context written in the contrails
So please, stop allowing me to breathe you in
Because as soon as you sink behind the rings of Saturn
I’m just a satyr myself, hunted
Until my two halves are ripped apart into fur and flesh
But that dopamine teases like raw steak
And the hound in me pulls at that chain for more
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4. |
Little Birds
02:26
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Little birds
Peck at the flesh
Of a paper heart
Strung out in a scarlet
Banner
For all to see
The tiny pinpricks
Bleeding across
My dotted chest
While their squawking
Invites more
To watch
Nothing to see here
Folks say while
Ignoring the dying
In favor of
Cell phone
Cameras
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5. |
Dendritic
08:30
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Dendritic we branch
Fractal we climb
We are time
We talk, we walk, we
This is what people do
I’m unsure, still getting used to this
Covering of skin and all the
We smile we tell each other
Stories of our pasts
And there’s no future
Without more pasts to tell
And always tell (and always tell)
The pull grows stronger, more
Present with each day the need
The urge to find you
Through the trees, all the trees,
You
Always slipping by somehow
Wround the corner
In this urban jungle
A thin, silver line
Invisible to most
But not to me
Not to you
I’m yours, the cells in me
Ache to find you (this ache)
Through all the needles littering the ground
I’d find you
And would it be strange if this time
We didn’t walk or talk
But instead I held your hand
Along the softest part of my belly
Without a word spoken
There amidst the trees
Just the pine air and your fingers on my ribs
And like a piano teacher
I’d guide those fingers under mine
Tap on them one
By one
Through the trees that watch us
Like nature’s voyeurs
Hands intertwining and singing to one another
In the thick arbor
And my belly in your palm
One warms the other, though it’s impossible to tell which way
The heat flows
And wouldn’t it be strange and wonderful
If not a word was shared
But instead the words that have no shape
And yet every shape still
If all these words found places to sit
In the corners of our minds
And we gently tucked them away
Because we knew that words
Could not do justice to this sweet thing
I’d see you and your eyes would take me in
Like the girls etched in oils,
Dimensionless on a canvas
Hung in galleries for all to see
You’d be there in the trees with me
And the earth would drip from everywhere
Your tongue to hold the nectar of all these sweet moments
And still so new and fresh
I’d guide your hand
Belly to hip
Your fingers know me now
It’s only been a moment but it’s unfolding like eternities always do
And you know me now
By touch by taste by smell
Oh god the smell
The way your essence pours into me
My nose caressing tiny hairs on the side of your neck
And I graze my teeth along
For neither of us knows
The thousands of ways we could die
None of them as painful as this
The awful beauty in the agony I feel again and again
The time has come for all of us to say die
Or else who knows what could happen
My breath is no longer my own
But ours to share here in the trees
The trees that watch us
And make love to us
Our skin bare to dry leaves and sky
I kiss your mouth
And taste the words you’ve left inside
Our fire threatens the forest
So we run downstream to where the world was born
I lie in half repose and otherwise taut with hunger
The words and all the words spill out of me of you of us
But silent and devoid of language
Still
So still on the bank of the stream
I read you poetry
Your head on my lap
You fill yourself with all the sweetness
Flowing from me
Never knowing when my gasps
Are from metaphor and meter
Or your soft sweet tongue that dances
Along the sun rays and my shadows
We find each other anew in every branch of time beginning here
My fingertips close your eyelids
I walk them along your neck
And here amongst the trees at the river’s edge
I let you slip into my hands
The parts of you that have no shape
But still, to me, feel the most real
I’ll hold them here against my chest
So that the beat they feel might revive them
The rhythm knocking against my ribs is yours
It’s meant for you
And you know this as your hand on the smallest of my back
Guides me to the fallen leaves
And props you up so we are nose to nose
I feel all parts of you now
At the borderlands of here and tomorrow
And yesterday and always
We are a constellation waiting to be born
I want to satiate you time and again but you know what they say
A single step must begin with a journey of a thousand miles
And so I lead you and you lead me back
My hair held tightly in your hands
My nails grazing your midnight thoughts now come to life
And here we are, amongst the trees,
The only others who will know
And later will remind me
Of what it felt like to have you, even for that infinite moment
The cosmos slip through the needle’s eye…
The time when I let you inside
When the words failed us and neither of us could tell
When the darkest parts of me sat draped across your lips like candy
And when you kissed every memory held between my shoulders
When I tasted the seconds that trickled from you, fancying them minutes or even hours
When you took me as your own and watched my fingers play
before coming to me again to fill me with still more dreams
Only the trees remind me
And I’ll carry a piece of the dream along for colder nights
When I’ll pretend your breath is on my back
And on my belly
Winding its way through all the words that weren’t there
I’ll let my own eyes close
As the memory serves me
And I serve myself to it
Just me
Just the trees
Just the shade of you on my hips
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Iambic Beats Los Angeles, California
We have so many titles. A few of mine are: scientist, poet, writer, singer, mom. I like to think I live at the intersection of music and words and always asking questions. A goddamn lovely place to be.
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